Breast cancer
posted by WicklowLady
09 February 2013

Not feeling great today

Last reply: 10 February 2013 09:51

Feeling pretty crap today. I've had a problem before I got breast cancer, pain in my ear travelling down my shoulder into my side, had various scans including brain scan and it showed nothing. Doctor 'thought' it might be a touch if fibro myalgia and prescribed medication which I really don't think made that much of a difference. I stopped taking them when I started chemo didn't see the point, funny thing I didn't suffer while going through chemo. I just don't feel well. Maybe it's because my friend died so quickly but I'm frightened that there is cancer somewhere else and I'm frightened to death, to investigate it. I could cry for Ireland today. Sorry xxxx

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commented by youngk
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 13:59

Sorry to hear you're feeling so low, but it's understandable, you've been through a lot. I think we all worry that every ache and pain could be something sinister.

Sending cyber hugs and hope you feel better soon.

Karen

commented by Neadi
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 15:39

Sorry to hear that Mary!

It could be a mixture of everything- your friend, finishing chemo and then the two operations......a lot to contend with, and you've been doing brilliantly!

We're all allowed a down day, so allow yourself to be sad and feel what you feel!

Tomorrow is a new day!

Big hug

Xx

commented by WicklowLady
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 15:47

Thanks girls just feeling a bit down, it's scary when I think of my friend. Ill tell them about my ear pain on Monday. Just need to lift myself out of this. I've no appetite either

commented by wilmaone
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 16:19

Hi Mary

Be kind to yourself you've had a very busy week.It all catches up !! Have a nice weekend.

Sending hugs
Xx

commented by shirls
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 17:19

Hi Wicklowlady,
Ah you poor pet. We all get crappy days even when treatment has come or is coming to an end. You have been through so much and it is feckin hard to stay positive every day. The down days really are a side effect that your oncologist doesn't prepare you for. A good cry is sometimes the best medicine. Be nice to yourself, you have been amazing so far,
We are all here to help each other through,

Hugs,
Shirls x

commented by WicklowLady
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 17:23

Thanks I do feel better from all your comments. Sometimes you just feel so vulnerable it's frightening

commented by shinners
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 17:25

Mary there must be something in the air this weekend because I am feeling miserable too. I lost my mate who was diagnosed a few weeks after me and it was her first anniversary yesterday. I have learned to just roll with the tide and when I have a bad day I promise myself that tomorrow will be better and most of the time that is the case. It is ok to feel crap, you are going through so much that it is impossible to keep smiling every day. Of course you are going to be afraid that the cancer is somewhere else , once bitten and twice shy!!! I am 2 years since my diagnosis and still worry when I get a pain but I am slowly learning to "turn down the volume" in my head.
Cuddle up on the sofa tonight. Sending you cyber hugs

Sinéad x

commented by Kathleen
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 17:37

Hi Mary,

So sorry to hear that you are not feeling so well. Last week certainly was rough for you in so many ways. It's hardly surprising that it's hitting you now. Just be nice to yourself.

Note down all of the questions for Monday just in case you forget anything Image removed.

I'm not so surprised that the ear symptoms went away with chemo. We get so much extra medication to prevent us getting allergic reasons that any inflammatory areas just calm down temporarily. The body just doesn't create inflammation as a reaction while you are on chemo.

Hugs

Kath

commented by encee
09 February 2013

09 February 2013 22:53

Oh Mary, my heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry your friend passed away, that alone is so sad, without you having gone through treatment and waiting on results too.
But I agree with Shinners, it must be something in the water - I'm so emotional and tired and cross and impatient and sad this past fortnight that I don't know which way is up. I can talk about everything but the minute anyone asks how I am, or says how great I got through it, etc., I just clam up and change the subject because I don't think I'm that marvellous at all. As my doctor described it a few weeks ago -"Fragile" is an understatement. But there are still more good days than bad, and I just get by thinking that too.
Is there any harm in suggesting touching base with your local cancer support centre to see if there is anyone available to chat to? And of course we are all here too, and big hug to youxx

commented by WicklowLady
10 February 2013

10 February 2013 01:28

You've all been fantastic and my lovely husband brought me for a meal and it was lovely and I feel much better. My friends 19 year old was in the pub his friends had taken him out and I felt so sorry for him having lost his mammy but he's a good kid, but I couldn't help feeling so sad for him.

commented by deefed
10 February 2013

10 February 2013 09:51

Glad you got out Mary thats always a good tonic and what a rough week you have had. Defo something in the water first few days of this week were awful for me and was also really sad.

xx

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