I hate Cancer

It has taken my father a wonderful kind loving man who cared for our mom for years before she passed he was the most gentle and caring person iv ever known I know how I felt when he passed I still feel empty and sad and there's days I could cry for hours just the smallest things that would set me off my dad passed on May 27th 2017 exactly a year before my dad got his diagnosis but not only my dad my nephew who was 26 at the time was diagnosed with cancer also and to make it harder for us all my husband was also diagnosed with cancer I have so much hatred for that word I can't even begin to explain how much I hate it my beautiful wonderful caring dad passed last year our hearts broke and still are my nephew thank God is cancer free a year after surgery God willing he will stay that way as for my husband I had to tell my children that we have to make as many memories as possible with him the doctors told us it's just a matter of time left.
So please forgive me for using the word hate but I hate cancer.