Cancer and stoma

Hi, 48 yr old female diagnosed with stage 4 bowel and liver cancer in march 2023, had emergency colostomy in aug 2023 and I am still struggling with having the stoma. i just cant accept it, it has changed so many aspects of my life, and I have developed a hernia as a result. I know I shouldnt be focusing on the stoma but it has completely shattered my confidence. I spend more time dwelling on the stoma than on the cancer which I realise is silly but I dont feel like my self anymore. Got news today that all of the tumours have grown in the last 3 months so will start on a different course of chemo.

Anyone else with a stoma feeling the same way?