Getting there....wherever there is!

Hi Sunshine71

I am that year ahead of you & yes life gets a lot better when you're finished with all the hospital treatments. For me life will never be the same again but that's not a bad thing, I'm a lot more easy going & accepting of things (especially cancer) I was never given the proverbial "all clear" but am confident that I am "cancer free" I have a smile on my face, feel great & am enjoying life. I am really looking forward to 2013 as I see it as a new era of my life. I just had a successful Diep in Oct so to me that marks the end of this part of my cancer journey & hopefully the end of all those pesky hospital appointments. My new life starts on 01Jan2013. I've learned so much on this journey, medical facts & words I'd never heard before but most of all I've learned the true value of friends, family & even strangers on a message forum!! I can't believe I'm not divorced, I found out that I'm married to the most patient man in the world!! But I have to say I wouldn't have made it through this without ALL of you!!

Thank you all & here's hoping that 2013 is a good year for all of us.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Funkychic that is exactly how I feel. I will never be the same but but a better person from all this. I've learned so many words and so many things that I never knew, but most of all I've been heartened by people they have been brilliant helped me through it with calls, texts, prayers, candles etc. the people on this forum have been invaluable, brilliant.

I'm in for my sixth and last chemo in Monday the last day of the year I can't believe it. I can take anything after chemo I hate it but I'm nearly through it thank God. I will be glad to see the back of 2012. Since the day the doctor told me I had cancer it's been a whirlwind. I feel I'm consumed by hospitals and tests and chemo and injections and afraid of picking up something. It's scary but you get through it and I can now see light at the end of the tunnel.

Thank you to everyone on here and may we all have a happy and healthy 2013 xxxx

While I am really glad for all those coming out the other side and wishing for a brighter 2013, all those people who have made it through the tough times already, I'd to mention the rest of us who are still stuck mid treatment. Personally I don't feel like 2013 is new year, its just another year for me where I have very little control over what doctors to see, the proposed treatment plan and the drugs that will be supplied (with a sackful of sides effects), and my life in general. It seems to be a never ending uphill battle that is extrermly tiring and frustrating.
Because sometimes it is all just a but crap! Family and friends think that chemo and surgery over-I'm cured. But in reality I am no where near. So for the people who sometimes find it hard to stay positive for the coming year, maybe 2014 will be ours and you're still not alone.
Thanks to all for your continued support and guidance
Ania xx

I feel the same Ania! 2013 is the year that loads of horrible treatment still has to come near me. Maybe 2014 will be a happier year for us still stuck in this c&€p......

Oh I'm sorry just because I'm finishing tomorrow m bellowing it from the rooftops not thinking that some of you out there are facing in to it. When the 1st jan 2012 came I never thought I'd be ending the year like this but we all have to be positive no matter what. I do wish that your 2013 isn't so bad xxxx

Ladies all your posts hit home and can honestly say I have felt the entire range of emotions mentioned.
Mary good luck with your last chemo it is great to get it finished with. I didn't get mine last week as I had a bad chest infection so 2013 will start back in the hot seat on Friday for another chemo. Hoping it will be my last one .... thought it was all behind me last July when they said I would never have to do it again but against all the odds I found myself back there in Oct/Nov and now again for Jan.

Seeing oncology mid Jan and while I hope 2013 will be better so scared of the future and what it will bring. My path has deviated quite a bit since diagnosis so while I have done chemo, surgery, RT and more chemo not quite sure I am finished.

Very grateful that recent secondaries scare was "just" fractured ribs (mega painful but we all know what it could of been). Sunshine I hear you on the side effects and the problems with your portcath. Supposedly to make the hunt the vein a thing of the past. Whereas you got infections I got a major clot problem with a Picc line which has long lasting effects for me. Ania I hear you on the people think that you are "done and fine" now that your chemo and surgery is over. They have no real idea what having cancer means. Regrettably but thankfully we all do so I guess here is to 2013 and 2014 and all those other years, working together to support each other to get through all this and come out the other side, live our lives however changed with the ones we love. Happy New Year(s) to one and all.

Hi Wicklowlady,
Best of luck tomorrow. Just think that by this time tomorrow night you will be finished chemo
Shirls x

Good luck wicklow lady, congrats on finishing the chemo x

Thanks Shirls I really can't believe that I've arrived at this stage but I've had a little burning sensation on my heart side for the past few days, hope it isn't anything.

Good luck Mary xx

Thanks, how are you doing neadie? Did you get over Christmas ok? I'm sitting here waiting to be hooked up for my last chemo can't believe it. Ill be there for you when you start or anyone else xxxx happy new year

I did- was just so happy to get home!! However have eaten my bodyweight in chocolate and god knows what else!! I couldnt drink coz of the antibiotics they had me on for infection.

I'm still waiting for word of my education session and heart scan. And still absolutely petrified to be honest!!

Just don't know what to expect or what it's all going to do to me. It just seems like such a long long time...

Anyway I hope it's all going smoothly up there for you! Any word on a date for the op?

Oh don't worry about eating I don't eat for a week when I've the taste on my mouth then I make up for it after. I feel I'm entitled to eat a box of chocolates if I want. I can get walking again when I'm over this.

What's your education session? Oh they'll look after you don't worry they're there to make you better so they won't do anything to you.

Yes it's good my taxotere is reduced again which is brilliant. Really can't believe it's my last one. Just so happy and will ring in the new year at home with a few friends. I've always celebrated new year so I'm not changing this year. Just asked her to check could I have a sneaky glass of champagne tonight.

My operation will be end of January haven't got an exact date. I'm sitting here looking out the window thinking 'how lucky am I' . We will all be much better people with a different attitude to life and that's not a bad thing. Xxx

Hope she goes as easy on me

Janice will look after you don't worry xxxx she's brilliant

Hope so!

Enjoy the finishing feeling

Xx

I am it's a bit surreal and I'm going to be finished in less than an hour yippee xxx

Congrats xxxxx