waiting waiting waiting................

Hi Ger

You poor thing, you obviously had a very bad night last night. We have all been there, I hit a wall last weekend and could have thrown myself out the window, was in bits with pain in my arm and breast from the mastectomy and reconstructiion and fed up with wounds that just wont heal and need dressing every day, but I promise you it will pass and you will get through this. As soon as you see your surgeon your plan will come together and you can start putting dates in your diary to work towards. I have decided to start a programme of Bio Energy for 4 days this week to assist with inner healing and have great hopes that this help me.
Keep strong, we are all here for you xxx Sinéad

Thanks Sinead,

Yes I think I did have a really bad night last night. However I met with the surgeon today and another MRI is planned in the next week or two and then surgery in November, thankfully something is happening!

Felt silly this morning that I was so annoyed with the world and whats happening, feel more positive now.

Thanks for your kind words Sinead, I know its tough for us all.

Hugs and love

Ger xx

Ah Holy God, it is impossible to be upbeat all the time! It hits us all at different times in different ways; I have been hyper-positive since my diagnosis, through surgery and now that I'm near the end of chemotherapy and due to head into the wonderful world of radiotherapy I have begun to have a couple of little voices in my head
- one is saying "sweet Jesus when is all this cancer treatment going to end and when will I be able to have a normal conversation without inevitably talk of my treatment coming into it" and I'm no where near the end of the road as after radiotherapy I have a year of Herceptin; and the other voice keeps saying how lucky I am that I am here, that I can be treated with such a good outcome, how lucky I am to have such a wonderful husband, children, dog, family, friends, and community around me.
I used to feel so bad if I was feeling like a bag of sh@te but I now know that it's not me - it's a combination of tiredness and chemopause (my husbands term for chemotherapy-induced menopause!)
I just keep reminding myself that one year of madness is a small sacrifice for hopefully a long and glorious life:-)
Have you visited any local cancer support centre? Maybe having a chat with some of the people will rationalise and validate the way you feel sometimes?
Continued good luck in your treatment and hopefully all will be well soon x

Hi girls,
We all get days and moments that we feel when is this all going to end? The waiting game is the worst time ever. Only those that have done the waiting game can only understand what it is like. This chat fourm is great as you can write down a question and know that someone else is or has felt the same thing. At least we know and understand the emotions etc.
Take care Will be thinking of you over the next few months
Sunflower

Hi guys

all is good but I am with you on the feeling like sh@te.Its a wierd and wonderful world. you are trying to keep positive and inside of you has a worm constantly turning..wondering what is going to happen! I love the honesty here, the real people...the ones who are going thru it! My sister said something weird to me yesterday...............she wondered why they had said so many things to me..regarding my treatment (meaning that i was getting off lightly) it hurt me so much, I think she was thinking that the worst was going to happen. To me the worst IS GOING TO HAPPEN, only to her..I wasn't going to be completely dissected!!!! People who are not going thru this can say the funniest things. I feel she needs to be
the side of this I'm going thru to be in my shoes!

i love my family but wonder do they know what this is all about.....

love your comments guys..keep chatting..

yours in cancer

ger
xx