in memory of my mam and dad xx

i lost my dad on the 19th january 2008 , he passed away with throat cancer and it was horrible,he lived in tralee and i liv in dublin,i miss him so much,knowin he couldnt be there to see me grown up wi kids or walking me down the aisle,i was only 14 and it really changed me,losing a father i tought was the worst thing to happen to me,but then in december last yr my brother insisted me mam went doctor has she had a very bad cough! she eventually went,but in the mean time i had been researching her symptoms and i just knew it was lung cancer but i wasnt going to tell her that,on the 7th january she was told she had lung cancer , brain tumours and if the chemo worked she wud have from 3months to a year plus to live,we were heartbroken knowing we only had a limited time with her,me and me ma wud never get on,but i knew it was time to put my past behind me,she took a seizure soon after and ever since then really she was in hospital,we did the house up ( got new furniture,paint,wooden floors,) as it was her wish to get the house done up, it was heartbreaking going in to see her in st lukes,i wasnt strong enough to hold back me tears and all we would do is cry saying how much we loved eachother saying good bye,she eventually ended up in our ladys hospice and a week later she had deteriated so bad she was just sleeping,we knew it was time,it was heartbreaking, we spent her last few hours with her while she was unconsious and telling storys,singing her fav song (somewhere over the rainbow) holding her hand,everything, then at about 6.17 the doc said one of us stay with her while the doc gets everyone else,i spent her last few mins with her alone saying how sorry i was how much i loved her and to let go,everyone came in and we held her hands etc and she left us at 6.21 am on the 9th of february which was my boyfriends 21st, it was one of the worst days of my life,im 20 and living with no parents just my sister and brother,not a day goes by we dont think of her and shes out a pain now,i wouldn wish this on anyone to go through,cancer destroys lifes i just wish no one had to go through it,love you lots mam your over the rainbow now with dad rest in heavenly peace :* xxxxxxxxxxxxx