posted by Neadi
04 December 2012
Boredom.....
Last reply:
13 December 2012 22:03
Hi guys
Reality has hit 18 days post surgery. Pain is subsiding and for everyone else the cancer is gone and life is returning to normal........
No way!!! I suppose now surgery is out of the way the next hurdle is looming bright and scary on the horizon and I'm not looking forward to it one little iota! (so so terrified of the chemo that I'm now waking up in the middle of the night worrying about it.)
Also you gals who have been there, how on earth do you fill the days??? If the cancer doesn't nobble me, the sheer boredom will!! I feel so isolated from my friends up in Dublin and all I want to do us get up and go to work....(god I NEVER thought I'd be typing that!!)
Time on my hands is just giving me far too much time to think- think of scary chemo, think of the life I so desperately want back again, think of the horrible drain i STILL have attached to ne (i must hold the record fir the longest drain hold!!)think will I ever be completely cured of this horrible disease????
Sorry for moaning guys.....but today I really think I'm going to go off
my head if I have to look at another soap, magazine, dr Phil, sky news showing the same stuff over and over again.
I go out for walks, I phone friends but I just long for the carefree independent carefree pre cancer life I once had - that all my friends have.....it just sucks.
Bad day I guess
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