posted by murphyahp
12 January 2009
Post Op Breakdown
Last reply:
12 October 2015 11:22
Just wondering if anyone else went throught this.
Its now 6 weeks since I had a mastectomy with immediate reconstrucion. Op was tough but I am recovering well, I think, and prognosis is very good. The thing is I seem to be more upset now than I was before. My diagnosis was a bit hectic I suppose. I was told I was fine only to get a call back 10 days later to say the dr had reconsidered. I am delighted he did as he was right and he was brilliant and looked after me well. I have absoutely no complaints. Naturally I was upset being told I needed a mastectomy as I had large area of DCIS but now that I'm recovering I cant get the whole thing out of my mind.
It's now after 3am and I have been up crying for the past hour while the house sleeps. Its very difficult getting comfortable to sleep anyway but I find it's my mind that keeps me awake really. Every moment I seem to be thinking about the drs, the operation, the breast clinic etc How do I move on from this as I'm begining to think I'm losing control. I'm usually a very level headed person and to everyone else thinks I'm coping so well but I'm not really.
Sorry for rambling and I know there are lots of people with much worse diagnosis but I'd be grateful for any advice
Thanks.
Aileen
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